Internship

Now it's week 18 out of 28 week of my internship .. i feel like time really fly ...at the begining i really wish that time would fly so fast so that i can end my intern fast ..but now i wish that time plz move slow cuz i need time to finish my project... This project is my second project over 4 projects that i need to handle.. And this time my mentor give me deadline .. gosh .. with ton of data  .. i need to key in and analyze them within 1  month .. Now my internship start to be more scary cuz my next presentation is coming ... yeah by them ..not by UTP SV... they really put pressure on me.. and they never train or teach me .. everything i do , i have to start by my own .. ..idea and all.. i need to go ask this and that person ... and of course even vendor in USA.. it's kind of fun with pressure....As the youngest in the department so they treat me like kid... wen i tried they force me to eat only... wen i walk to their room they ask me to eat eat and eat cuz they know it well that i am stressful....arghh.. I miss UTP so bad.. miss the owl life.. Miss party life... Miss cameron highland(the place i always go) ... Miss driving on Malaysia street .....huh..  

Chevron New Year Party

Cosmetic for make up ...

Okay ..Let's start !! :)

First , this is my cosmetic bag ... for me i use Victoria Secret ..nothing much just it's nice

Now come to "eye primer" ... For me this is a "must"  in order to prevent ur eye liner and eye shadow mix together.. but if u dont' put eye liner and eye shadow ..this is not important .. 

"Loose powder"....This is a must for me... now i am using Dior and Laura Mercier .. in term of the best , i would chose Laura mercier..it's the best .. Loose powder is  the power that u use to put after u wear foundation or BB cream .. :) 

Next , base.. this one is a choice.. u have or not also can.. for me , i use this together with my Dior foundation so that i can blend together and become a colour that not too fake...so this combination make my face look more natural ..

"Naked palette 2"  It's eye shadow.. this palette can do many style but in term of earth tone. It's not flashy colour. This is a must if you don't want your eyes to feel too naked. This is a choice , if u think u lazy to put .. 

"Foundation" ... This is a must for make up.. This is the first step for make up. If you lazy, u can use BB cream as a substitution. If u ask me which foundation brand is the best ... i would say  Giorgio Armani Luminous Silk ..which u couldn't find it in Malaysia and Thailand. For sisley foundation ,suitable for the people who don't like thick thick foundation.. It can cover just well. If you want to make it thick , just put two round.. ..Tip how to chose the colour for foundation : when you try for the colour, don't try at ur back hand ...ask vendor to put it on ur face ..so that u can see whether the colour suit with u or not...It's ur choice to chose whether  u want brighter or natural colour. For me i prefer natural look...

"Concealer " .. This is to put after u put ur foundation .. to cover up ur red scar, acne and all black spot ..especially urs panda eyes .. The best concealer is "Mac" studio finish concealer ..it can cover up very well though u got acne. The rest that i got is just so so.. 

Powder eyebrow pencil ... this is a must for me cuz i don't really have eyebrow .. But if ur eyebrow is too thick this is a choice .. you don't need it :).. unless u go to the shop and ask them to do eyebrow shape for you ..then you can use this pencil to draw ur eyebrow... Tip to chose the colour : chose the colour according to ur hair colour :)

"Eye liner" this is a must !!!.. to make ur eyes look more sexy .. and to focus on ur eyes.. There are gel , liquid and pencil liner .. for me i prefer liquid eye liner ..as it can stay longer than other type of eye liner... If u ask me to suggest , i would suggest u to buy liquid eye liner pen type... for pencil eye liner i am not suggest u to use as it can melt easily compare to other type.. Before put eye  liner ..remember always put eye primer...it can help eye liner to stay longer than normal.

"Skin flash" It's like a highlight ... it's a choice .. this is for u to highlight your nose or under ur eyes.. to make your eyes  look brighter and shiny ....Only "Dior" have this .. 

Bronzer .. this is for you to do shading .. in order to make ur face look more oval... you can put this thing before "brush on" .. to contour ur face..

"Brush on "   This is a must!!!  to make ur face look like u are healthy.. I would suggest u to buy pink colour to make u look like u have a tomato on ur cheek.. don't put too much just put until you think that it make ur face look like u have tomato cheek ... I got purple and orange ( don't trust colour in the picture) .. y i chose that right?.. purple one ..i use it for my night out look.. and for orange  i use it when i to make a natural look or earth tone look 

" Face Primer" .. This help minimize pore on ur face.. i suggest for those who have pore problem ..i suggest u to buy this ..in order to make ur face look more smooth when u put foundation ... this thing u have to put it before u put foundation.. and don't use it at the eyes.. it's different chemical ..

"Lipstick"...Of course ..this is a must!! .. u can chose any colour that u want .. for me i prefer earth tone which is more to orange colour ..it will look more natural .. If i want sexy look ..i will go for a really red or purple colour ....It's depend how u want to look .. :) ..plus u can mix the colour also .. 

"Lip maximizer" ... this is totally lip gloss ..for me it's a must .. to make ur lips look more glossy ..but if u don't  like, don't buy

This is the option for u .. it can use substitute eyebrow pencil.. IT's a brown eye shadow and angled detail brush .. for me it's quite hard a bit to use this .. so i consider it as a choice.. :) .. 

Upcoming post

This gonna be my first time doing some post about my cosmetic bag. I am gonna show you guys which  product is a must.. and which product is a choice ... why i wanna do this right?.. simple .. Bored.. cuz of too much tension from office hehe.. Stay tune !..

Clarify

I am not over him yet  ---> My ex- chinese bf

I still use him as my motivation to smile ----> still my ex - chinese bf..

In case some people may misunderstanding ...

P.S. Just clarify... gt?

Just my feeling and the fact

How many times that i have told myself dont' cry dont' cry.. you are big girl.. big girl don't cry.. But i really can't do it.. I admit that i am not over him yet.. I still use him as my motivation to smile to breath every single days.. I am tired of being myself. I got disease , it's called  major depressive disorder. Yeah correct ..you didn't hear it wrong.. that's the disease that i got.. I can't tell you really how this disease is like.. you better google .. I can survive my life now by medicines...  If i really dont' eat medicine just one day .. worst come to worst ... i can do suicide. .. Why i got this right?.. The begining of this disease start wen my life only got disappoints as a friend. I am heart broken many times. And now it's the third times. Every disappointments noone know how much i hurt ..IT's not just cry and everything will b end. no.. It's not like that... I am suffer by this disease for almost 3 years .. and yeah the only wway to cure is by medicine and environment....I can't be stress... If i stress , i can't do anything ..beside cry till numb till wanna do suicide .. yeah it's torture.. I wish that the person that hurt me, feel how much i hurt.. I hurt triple than the normal person.. yeah u didnt' hear it wrong.. I am not normal..and i don't know when can i cure this disease.

See this

Here are just one part out of many pages of my experiment. I sent the draft to my colleague to check and ask him to modify to me.. This is how "red" it is..that i need to change and edit and all.. it's so embarassing but also funny ..none of any pages don't have red marks.. .Nice one haha..

Year 2013

Finally, I am here in the office. After i had a great escape .. Thank you to Missie very much for everything.. :) ..I am not really in the mood of so call "New Year".. It's just another day for me ..However, i am still in 2012 =.,=" .. I start to slowly do work .. since i guess i am too rushing so that' s y my mentor can't find any work for me since most of my work almost done (really?) haha... Watever..I am just start doing my work in slow progress so i think it would be better in this way..

Happy New Year 2013!!